Friday, December 13, 2013

Part 7 - Acceptance and forgiveness

Contd from Part 6 - My father's letters

I felt let down by a man I loved the most, my idol....my heart still couldn't believe what my mind was suggesting! "You seem quiet there Son, everything alright?" A tense shrug was all I could muster in response, the diary still on my mind. I already felt a certain kind of connection with him...the faceless one...

Rajjo Maasi and Ma were busy chatting, catching up while I was gazing at the rural idylls as the lush acres of greenery were staring back me, welcoming me to their land...my land. They seemed to be speaking to me coaxing me to let go....assuring me that I will find what I seek. The chaotic half an hour drive from the station that reminded of the narrow lanes of Chandni-chowk and made me feel right at home, the colorful turbans bouncing in every direction I saw, the cheerful voice of my mother reminiscing her childhood days - "see that lane Karan, that is where...", distracted me from the conflicts streaming in my mind. It was a travel through time for Ma...she had resisted to come back to Amritsar after marriage for many a reasons...but right now, this place, is where I'd like her to be...forever...if her kid-like expressions, her infectious smile and her twinkling eyes is what this place brought out in her.

In the evening we decided to visit the Golden temple one of the holiest places of Sikh worship in the world. I wasn't excited to go there at first...I needed some time alone...time alone with him...his diary. But Ma's expectant eyes melted me and I'm so glad that I accompanied them. As I stood facing the shimmering golden structure magically floating atop the placid lake, something in me stirred. The temple's golden rays reflected on the lake and entered straight into my heart. I sat on the cool marble surveying the many believers who were taking a dip in the sacred waters to cleanse their souls. Such is the way to love too I thought, taking the plunge, with undeterred faith and belief, no matter how cold the water is.



















The soulful reciting of the Guru Granth Sahib reverberated the surroundings connecting humanity... connecting me with my fathers...both of them...wherever they might be. I had never been a religious person...and I had lost complete faith when my life was upturned in a second three years back. But as I sat there soaking in the spiritual air I felt light...I accepted... I forgave...I felt a sense of gratitude... I had two fathers!

I requested Ma if I could stay back the night here...I had befriended a Sardarji who was a volunteer at the temple and was kind enough to let me join him in sweeping of the area at night. He told me this was service of the highest order and the early sunrise would be a divine blessing.

I stayed...



















What I experienced was something words can't express...I left there after eating at Guruji ka langar...both my stomach and my soul filled with love.

(to be contd.)

Day 5 prompt was Travel!

16 comments:

  1. V intersting story gal - trust me I read it all in on shot! So why did Anuj do it - cause he harboured a crush on his frnds GF all the while! But then again wasnt he a good father to Karan.. V nicely put!

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    1. Thanks dear for reading the entire bit in a go! Lv..yes he was a good father...stay put we will get some answers soon!

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  2. Glad he found some solace. Is this story coming to an end tomorrow?

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    1. Hopefully 2 more posts to go for the end Shilpa...bear with me till then! :)

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  3. Nice read. Waiting for the continuation. I am actually visiting it on sunday. I am sure, I would enjoy and surely would remember your post,( it being my latest read on golden temple).

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    1. Thanks Niranjan...long time mate....you've been going places...keep up the good work!

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  4. My dear girl, I read all d seven parts at one go & d least I can say is that ye dil mange more!! You are getting better and more mature in ur writing dear... keep it up! lots of love :)

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    1. Thank you so much mum...was so waiting for your comment! Muaah :)

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  5. Dying to take mom along and visit Golden Temple in Amritsar..I wanna drench ma feet in the cold water. Lovely lines Aditi, 'They seemed to be speaking to me coaxing me to let go....assuring me that I will find what I seek.'

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    1. Do plan that visit asap Vishal...it's blissful! Glad you liked this!

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  6. You really have made it beyoutiful! Thank you Aditi. That was emotional!

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    1. Thank you so much. ..always treasure your comments n feedback!

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  7. So much you have managed to evoke in my through these parts... I am so loving it.

    Richa

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    1. :) you rock! Thanks for the encouragement!

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  8. beautifully written. you bring out emotions beautifully in your words. on to next one now. :)

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