Thursday, December 12, 2013

Part 6 - My father's letters

Contd from Part 5 - Moving

I felt like throwing up and rushed outside, the book still in hand. My racing heart matched the beats of rattling of the train against the iron tracks. I took a deep breath and steadied myself, seeking some peace in the beautiful landscape whisking past me. I opened the book again...carefully eyeing it this time....yes it was a diary...no it wasn't Pa's...

I squinted and started to read the first letter....it was dated 1992. I was about 5 years old then...it was definitely from him! It simply said

"Anuj, I'm back...but broken and battered. 
I need you mate. 
Are you still in Delhi? Hoping you'll call me as soon as you get this. - S.S."

Ma had told me that they had searched for weeks for him...If Pa has this letter then why...?

I quickly turned to the next letter...

"You must be out friend...for the past one week I've been glued to my bed. I feel my legs will not be able to carry me....such is the heaviness in my heart. 
Kiran...I saw her the other day. I saw her son, his eyes as beautiful as hers. 
Why didn't you stop this...you said you'll take care of her while I'm away...how could she move on like that?
I couldn't face the humiliation Anuj. I couldn't face that she was someone else's...I ran...never looked back. I don't think I can look back... - S.S"

I wanted to scream. I wanted to question Pa. I wanted to know the meaning of this. With nervous hands I turned the page...

"No response from you. But writing to you eases my pain...
Love is a strange word, a different world...The once happy memories are turning sour.
I have started to question my love. Did she love me at all?
You remember this photo...you had clicked her and given it to me as I was leaving. Her smile, her eyes...sometimes I think the only reason I survived the atrocities at the border was because of this photo. I used to look at her...countless moonless nights spent like this...the bombs, the gunshots magically turned into a beautiful melody...her face the music my soul needed.
And now I can't ever bare to look at her. Trusting you with her photo and my diary - S.S.
P.S. I miss you my friend"

The letters were a haze now as I wiped a tear from my shirt sleeve. How could things go so wrong when two people are so in love? Why didn't a friend answer a friend in such dire need?

The train came to a halt. A tea vendor got in....several glass tea cups kept in a metal stand...his hand tinkling the cups rhythmically...his voice...a sing-song boyish voice repeating..."chai garam....chai garam", brought me back to present! I noticed we had reached Phagwara junction...I went back inside...Ma was perched on the berth. I wanted to hug her. I wanted to give back her lost years, her lost love. We were in this together now. We both have been lied to.

(to be contd.)

Day 4 prompt was Music!

18 comments:

  1. oh, dear. betrayal - or was it for the good of all?

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    1. :) you'll know pretty soon! Thanks for the constant support!

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  2. How sad! It is awful when this happens and quite the bitter pill to swallow. Great story.

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  3. OMG!! What made him think like that. Didnt they meet after he came back?
    Great going Aditi. Looking forward to the next part. Hope it has some answers! :)

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  4. Compelling story. Was it betrayal or just in his mind? Guess, love has its own complexities.

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    1. Oh dear yes love has its huge deal of complexities!

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  5. Looking forward to the next part Aditi..you can do it :) Betrayal !

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  6. oh my!! You have shaped the story so well..
    So much pain and betrayal.. :-/
    I wonder why?

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  7. being betrayed by someone so close must have been heart wrenching.... but glad she understood her mom..

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    1. Yes the duo are getting closer...he understands now...

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  8. Oh dear god... and there seems to be a case of betrayal. But I feel bad for Anuj too, he did love the lady then after all. And they say all is fair in love and war..

    Richa

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    1. He loved...a difft kind of love...

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  9. omg...what a brilliant twist in the tale...i have all the parts opened so i can read continuously..he he :)

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